I Wanted To Die

I wanted to die. Why was that? What could have been so terrible about the world around me that I no longer wanted to participate in it? That’s not even harsh enough. It wasn’t even a matter of participation. I no longer wanted to exist. I wanted to be erased like an error in the […]

Monthly Progress Picture and Weight Loss Update

Weighed in this week at 259 pounds, which means that I gained a pound this week, but lost 10 pounds over the course of the previous month, which is pretty awesome and about where I want to be. I gained access to a Tanita Body Composition Monitor last week but I can’t say where yet […]


I went to a CrossFit demonstration tonight and afterwards, there was a party-type thing at a wellness center that has a satellite office in the gym. My feeding window was long gone by then so I was leaning against a rail, exuding my usual level of social awkwardness while everyone else was eating. Full disclosure: […]

Reasons To Not Start Losing Weight

Reasons to not start losing weight. Loose skin. Being fat is genetic. I can’t afford surgery. I can’t live without my ____. Unsupportive spouse. Spouse loves me as I am. Unsupportive family. Not enough time to exercise. Holidays coming up. New Years isn’t for 2 months. Asthma. Have too many friends in these video games. […]

Top 10 Songs About Weight Loss

Just kidding. Do you really need that kind of novelty? I try to make my blog entries hit on points that matter these days. Mostly because when I’d go to other sites, I’d often see content that was posted for the sake of posting content — driving ad sales. Content for someone’s bottom line. It […]


I loves me some Sunbutter. I e-mailed the people there to ask why they didn’t advertise to the low carb/paleo community because it’s better than almond butter, as far as net carbs go, and way better than peanut butter because legumes are a no-no on paleo. As a result, they e-mailed me back and asked […]

When the Levee Breaks

Since I lost 8 pounds last week, I figured something might be up. That’s not a normal amount of weight to lose at my weight, especially since I doubt I had any water weight to lose. I’d been eating super clean for 2-3 weeks prior to that weigh in. So on Friday last week, I […]

One Hundred Percent

Some time ago, I read a quote that really resonated with me that I’ll paraphrase for you. I wish I could cite the source but I’m unable to locate it. I’m also probably going to butcher it badly, which I’m now realizing is likely why I can’t locate the source. ‘If you’re 100% dedicated to […]

The Cloud Phenomenon

I was visiting with my parents last week and a road crew started sawing into the blacktop pavement just down the street to repair someone’s driveway. It kicked up a small cloud of dust and my Dad started freaking out about it. He said it was hazardous to his health, even though the cloud was […]

I’m Half the Man I Used to Be

This month I lost 16 pounds, dropped an inch and a half off of my chest, 2 inches off of my waist, and 2 inches off of my hips. I weighed in this morning at 269 pounds, which means I dropped 8 pounds this week and I’ve lost 269 pounds since I started in March […]